The shocking Story of Becky #truestory #uk #britain

The shocking story of Becky from Stoke-on-Trent Who Overcame A Dark Journey.

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I used to make about ,500 a night 1500 ,500 a night a night yeah I’d sleep with about nine men that’s an obscene amount of money today it all went it all went on what me mom’s addiction well basically I was just sleeping with men constantly constantly for money and then I’d get I had a draw that used to put it in the money and I get up in the morning and it all be gone I had a brilliant childhood up until my sister was born my sister had got leukemia um I was four my brother was 6 and a half um so we lived in the hospital for 2 years um in Berry we lived that in Fairfield hospital for two years cuz like I said she had leukemia and then she passed away and my mom and dad were never the same again my dad started cheating on my mom quite a lot and my mom put up with it because my mom’s my mom was well she’s passed away now but she was very old school you know you stick with your relationship and you try and make it work basically but then obviously once my sister died things went wrong my dad couldn’t cope she’d run his bath eying his clothes and then she drive him to the pub pick him up from the pub um and then he left and it was just me my mom and my brother uh and my mother decided that she was only young she was like sort of like I’d probably say my age um she started having sex with agan guys and it got that bad do we queing up outside in taxes wow and this is while I was in the house goodness I was 11 and they took a shine to me wow a very big shine nothing happened but you know they they come up to my room me and my brother used to barricade oursel in the room put it that way my mom would disappear for days when we were like 12 and I was about 12 my brother was 14 she disappeared for days off her head on speed um whatever she could get hold of but she never left food in the house so me and my brother used to have to um Smash Up Furniture build a fire in the garden like a bombfire good and we we’d go to all the neighbors and ask them have you got tin of beans got a bit past it cuz we had a dog as well yeah and we used to hide from the rent man yeah um if we said to the dog the rent man was here the dog would work so the rent man would disappear cuz he was an Asian guy didn’t like the dog and my mom was really bad on the drink you know and just sleeping with anybody I don’t know if it was for gratification reasons or um cuz obviously my dad had left her I don’t know I don’t know how it were what was wrong with her but it was just we had all these Asian men in the house constantly and I found out later that one of the Asian men uh had been done for child rape wow yeah and then my granddad stepped in wait how did you find that out um it was in the newspaper goodness me through to that what I got stabbed stabbed by who well I got raped and they stabbed me five times in the leg and cut me leg the person that sexually assaulted you stabbed you five of them there was five of them yeah goodness me um this is when at time um and I was on my way home my girlfriend had left me we had had a row and I was on my way home I Dad I’m not going to say I had drugs cuz I D kept in and Coke yeah and I got you know you must have met addicts yeah I got talking to them you know just chatting away and blah blah blah and then that happened and he left me so what’s that the police just weren’t interested no I found I went to well I didn’t my girlfriend at the time found the police um and they didn’t even come out and so I didn’t I didn’t do nothing about it I just left it then left it yeah I left it I I wanted to forget about it shut my brain off because I know how to do that with what’s happened to me through my childhood I can switch off and also sleeping with men when I don’t when I’m not attracted to working as an escort I could switch off I could be somebody I wasn’t I could pretend to be somebody I wasn’t you know um you must get a high when you get a wedge of money in your hand yeah and that’s what I was feeling yeah so the more wedge I got in my hand the more I did right I never I never work the streets yeah and and I never ever did anything without condoms I wasn’t it wasn’t like that I was I was clean if that makes sense but not clean up drugs I used to have um it’s funny actually a black man used to come to see me he was a very regular client um he was a coke dealer and he used to come to stoke to collect his money cuz he had little Runners around here and he booked me for the whole day which would cost well it’s it was £40 for half an hour so you can imagine and we’ sit there all day sniffing Coke then we’d have then we’d have sex um he became a friend and then he’d go home he dropped me at home and then he’d go home and that became sort of like once a month I built up a really good clientele of men that didn’t want like weird things if you get what I mean I used to have like old men that wanted me to hold the hand you know pretend to be the girlfriend you know girlfriend experience and stuff like that um I built up a really good clientele but when I got to 32 I think I was um I got cancer uh cervical cancer 32 yeah I got cervical cancer I had to have what you call a colposcopy which is the inject I you know iodine you’ve heard of iodine it’s it’s it’s like a brown liquid is his dad yeah is his dad well I met him like I say I met him on Plenty of Fish met him at Tesco oh well you’ve told me that already yeah we had sex wasn’t anything to write to him about he stayed the night obviously uh the following morning he says to me are you going to go and jump in the shower and we’ll have a repeat I said no sorry I’ve got to go so I sent cuz it was a hookup do you know what I mean yeah um I didn’t want no more from him um and then obviously I found out I was pregnant and I told him and he come down I did the pregnancy test in front of him he wanted the proof um and then he gave his number to the Midwife I think he might have been wrong number um and when she were born couldn’t find him but I know he lives in Burton on threatened but I don’t want nothing from him do you know what I mean she’s my baby she’s my daughter I’ve raised her she’s a little [ __ ] she’s proper sassy um but mix race kids are but she starts to question a color at the moment right and she keeps using the word nicotine nicotine no nicotine nicotine yeah it’s said nicotine she’ll say nicotine I get that yeah or she calls herself a [ __ ] why is she saying that I think she’s heard cuz you know how many different mixed race people are I don’t mean mixed race do you know how many different races of people are I mean there’s a black a guy across a road called Sunday and he’s obsessed with her absolutely he Nigerian isn’t he he’s what Nigerian do you know him no is that a Nigerian name yeah Sunday yeah he is how the [ __ ] did you know that cuz that’s the kind of names they use yeah it’s called Sunday yeah but sounds about right I had him knck at the door one day because Arya what you’ve heard a mouth in the M was shouting to him where’s [ __ ] Monday Tuesday [Music] Wednesday so yeah um he will have nothing to do with Arya unless I I am involved he can’t set separate me from does that make sense no I’m confused right he fell so much in love with me even though we only had sex twice and he knew I was gay by what of you I don’t know what the two I I don’t think I’m B cuz I don’t go out looking for a man if I’m horny I’ll hook up but I like women um and AR’s dad he fell that much in love with me he couldn’t separate like he couldn’t be a dad to waria without me he wanted to be with me yeah and I couldn’t yeah so we didn’t speak um but I used to get like 100 150 text messages a day what you doing who you with you know stuff like that um and he started becoming aggressive and not scary he’s a biker he’s in a gang um but used he used to send messages like uh I’ve got people watching your house wow yeah or he’s that’s scary no not at all I wasn’t bothered most women I know would be petrified N I listen from probably the age of 14 I’ve forgotten what it’s like to be scared because I spent my whole life with you know nervous do you ever get that nervous stomach ache I don’t know if you if you know what I mean yeah yeah I’ve had that so many times now I don’t get myself in them situations where I feel like that people could say to me I’m going to come around and stab you and I’d be like well I’ll unlock the door for you because if someone’s going to stab you they’re not going to [ __ ] tell you they know they’re just going to come and stab you yeah you know um yeah arya’s Dad is he had an accident right and he got2 200,000 £2 200,000,000 yeah goodness me he SM he did it on purpose he rode his bike straight into a bus cuz he’s a bit of a dick um I know Andy I know I know Andy in I know Andy better than he knows himself um and first he lost his flat cuz he was drinking he wasn’t paying the rent blah blah blah and I I just had Isabelle Isabelle was five month oldold and I went over and we were friends cuz he was one of my closest friends in riab you know that’s why I trusted him have sex with him cuz I thought you know we’d have sex both get what we want and we both walk away and we’re still friends with it cuz that’s what I like yeah you know you have sex with someone and you get up and you go about your business yeah you don’t have to be aggressive you don’t have to fall out there’s no need for it it’s everybody wants some kind of comfort yeah you know to lay with someone you know it doesn’t have to be I don’t know if you think that way but to me sex is just sex unless it’s a relationship that’s different but you know if you’re just Hing so you’re able to uh disconnect emotionally from sex uh no I’ll connect with someone and have sex with them and and it’s really nice but once the sex is over you know you back to who you you were before have you forgiven your mother no no do you think you ever will um I’ve made peace with it you know I try to remember the good times um I only brought that picture out the other day I don’t normally I don’t have nothing in me mom’s around nothing I don’t think I could ever forgive her because I’ve got two daughters and I could never ever ever imagine I won’t let ARA out if she’s not wearing leggings and a jumper and a bra and a top do you know what I mean she won’t wear skirts not not a [ __ ] chance not a prayer on holiday yeah I don’t mind but I don’t allow to wear the little you know you see these girls at [ __ ] 10 with the skinny Tops on and makes me bad it makes me feel all I want to do is pick that child up and put a [ __ ] Jumper in a jacket over her walking around the streets with the [Music] did they call it a camel toe yeah oh my God yeah I have um a friend called um and she wears these leggings and that tie you can’t help but look yeah you must know yourself of course and I find it really unnerving or she’ll sit here and put her legs across me now she’s only 21 and I’m like 45 right she says she’s straight so why the [ __ ] are you sitting there on my sofa in a mini skirt with with everything showing and your [ __ ] legs across me yeah I say to her can you do me a favor and move over face I can’t I don’t I can’t I don’t deal I can’t I don’t like things like that yeah hard that was hard not hard in um because he W I don’t know if you you how you think about it as a man to a woman but when I’ve had when I had the miscarriages I wasn’t far along you know I was never any further than 12 weeks so they’re not they’re not babies really connected no so I to me they were just heavy periods to get what I mean um I did cervical cancer I had we were talking about that earlier on about the iDine um told me I’ve got what you called polycystic ovarian syndrome have you heard of it no what enough is that it’s um a struggle to conceive or struggle to carry right um and I think all the miscarriages were boys because obviously I’ve got two healthy girls and I think I don’t think I can carry boys um ovarian syndrome is it’s a lot of assists on your overes right um so when you when you’re pregnant obviously you can’t the baby can’t grow obviously because of all the cysts um I was told I’d never have a child told I’d never be able to get pregnant um and I did manage um obviously I managed quite a few times but a lot of miscarriages but very early on not not at like you know I didn’t like give birth to like a baby at 24 weeks and lose it you know stuff that I couldn’t coope with oh my God that you know I mean is well was I think they compensated with each other because Isabelle was born at 32 weeks and Ari was born at 42 weeks yeah so I think you know is Ari didn’t want to come into this world but they discharged me with Isabelle the same day yeah and she was3 2 oh wow uh we came back here my dad’s wife a midwife saying um and she lost when your baby loses up to 10% of the bodily weight they end up back in hospital and it turned out that uh she’s lactose intolerant she wasn’t putting the weight on because of the milk it just wasn’t you not worried your daughter’s going to smoke if she sees you smoke this much what we do cigarettes cigarettes she hates to smell cigarettes if I’ve cuz I smoke BD yeah she’s used to that smell and if I have a cigarette she’ll say me open in the window pleas I don’t like the smell yeah she doesn’t like it and I can’t smoke upstairs that stairs upstairs I have nothing to do with it they have their own rooms Isabelle’s is above this and arya’s is above mine Arya has jobs um she has to look after be upstairs that’s her jobs uh I pay £25 a week no well that’s the money off my dad yeah but I make a do job for it of course yes ear it um Isabella she just wants to get into to everything she wants to help you with anything and everything you are mentally how are you coping um I’m on cine which is an anti-depressant okay and I’m on um propanal which is for anxiety I don’t take it all the time it just it depends on my mood I’ll be honest with it depends on the girls because you know what it’s like living with women you’re a man you’ve got two girls hormones you know two different children yeah one punches the other yeah and I’ve got I have to separate them of course you know they can’t sit in the same rooms you know Isabella will go in my bed she loves my bed she gets in my bed she gets all cozy and she’ll stay there for hours and then Ari will come in and annoy you or if I go in to check on my phone it’s very rare I have my phone I don’t you might say I don’t have a [ __ ] phone um and I’ll go in and and I’ll check my phone or she’ll fall as sleep in my bed and I usually leave her I don’t like moving her when she’s I bet you wouldn’t if your daughter fell asleep no she falls asleep in my bed and cuz I’ve got quite pretty in terms of your dating life are you going to date a woman next or um I’d like a relationship with a woman but it’s finding the right one because I’ve got children and my you you’ve met my kids they give love and when they give it they give it all they don’t hold back and I think when I my my when I had like say is well wasn’t planned when I had Arya I PL razor on my own that was the plan the dads are not on the birth certificate none of them and so who did you put on the birth you have to put someone me on the birth certificate they asked for a father not involved okay that’s a choice is it that was my choice but they weren’t there yeah is is’s dad never seen him arya’s dad didn’t turn up wow so it was his fault you know I I I the way I wanted it was cuz I worked fulltime I trained as a chef while I had ARA in my arms yeah you know I’ve got her in one arm and I’m doing my exams with the other wow so and he wasn’t there for none of it you know he didn’t say to me yeah I’ll look after her yeah yeah um I get that and then we argued because obviously he couldn’t separate me from he wanted me basically to give up lacking women be with him and raise ARA together and I didn’t want that I said to him we can raise her as friends which would be better because there’s no arguments there’s no disagreements we’re friends you’re a dad and I’m a mom is that simple yeah but he couldn’t separate his love for me to be a dad to her but she doesn’t like him he touch you what he did now look you’ve seen how big she is I don’t mean f when I say that he turned up two year when she was nine she still walk the same at nine he turned up dressed as Santa and a holly DAV son with music on Santa music on and turned up here outside the house she was so embarrassed so embarrassed she was in the best mate yeah she said I don’t want to see him again mom never again oh wow so that’s her choice yeah I let her make decisions because she’s got a brain yeah as kids parents don’t let you make your own decisions yeah and I think it’s wrong myself personally that’s a huge decision to make for a child she’s not a normal 11-year-old she’s got the head of a 20-year-old she saw her dad for what he was yeah he never paid anything I tell you what put but the I Arya she would never go anywhere with him yeah she was not scared of him but she didn’t know him so she wouldn’t get a car with him she wouldn’t even sit in the car I had to be there and he talk us to McDonald’s one day his b was about three no no she been not three or four and he only bought Arya McDonald’s and when he walked in the house in front of me and Isabelle he turned around to Ari and said put your McDonald’s in the kitchen until Izzy goes bed so Ari went straight in the kitchen got a McDonald’s split it on two plates and sat there on the floor with Izzy and Sh of McDonald’s and he didn’t like that yeah he didn’t like didn’t like the fact that she doesn’t need him she’s never needed him I can leave her for I could leave her like I say I had bad tooth last weekend and she looked at it Isabella all weekend for me I was on diis because I couldn’t sleep my friend gave me a strip of DIY pan you know only the 5 milligram ones um and I had me painkillers obviously I was only in there so if anything had have happened you know I I was still in the house but she’d come in she said mom how what what can I make easy fruity my daughter’s obsessed with noodles [ __ ] Maggie chicken noodles so she eats so Ari went to the shop got her made her chops she likes chops and noodles strange child and Ari made him for her and she actually looked after her for the weekend oh that’s and that was really good and I love it when it’s like that but then Izzy gets this I think Izzy’s got ADHD myself personally all of a sudden one minute she’s fine then she’s coming in there punching her in the face after she’d spent the whole weekend looking after her after her yeah yeah so you know go all the time how many cigarettes do you have a day I don’t smoke cigarettes told you I’m only smoking cigarettes cuz you’re here I’m here yeah yeah I wouldn’t roll the joint while in me house fair enough I haven’t got a hair him off I told you that never get old it won’t now you know it I know it I am a recovering addict I’m always going to be an alcoholic or a drugie but I’m a recovering but I’ll always still be classed as a recovering addict and I’m fine with that I don’t think if I’d have been through half the stuff I had I don’t think I would have been able to raise the girls so way I have done yeah if you could go back in time what would you do different nothing nothing nothing at all did you learn from your mistakes don’t you [Music] [Music]